Familes are Forever

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Showing posts with label Family History. Show all posts
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Saturday, October 15, 2016

A Fireman's view: 15 years later.


My brother; Benjamin Thomas Tolman

Ben's Facebook Post 9/11/16
Today I had the somber and sobering opportunity to do a 343 minute tribute to the 343 fire fighters killed on Sept 11, 2001. I stood at attention holding an American flag wearing my turnout gear, with a set of empty turnout gear next to me representing fallen fire fighters. I stood there for nearly 6 hours, 1 minute for every fire fighter killed that day. A couple of people stopped and stood with me for a few minutes. Most people honked or waved. I could tell who the veteran...s were because they would promptly give a dignified salute. Alot of people took pictures. I had many "thank you's" . It brought some people to tears. I am glad I was able to turn people's thoughts back to those who lost their lives that day, even just for that short time they saw me. I had 6 hours to think about it. I hope they saw the empty gear beside me and knew what it meant. I tried to imagine each fire fighter stepping into the gear next to me for one minute. I imagined the empty lockers at their stations because they would never return. I imagined their cars in the parking lots never to be claimed by their owners. I imagined empty beds and empty homes. Holes in the lives of so many others. Sons, Father's, daughters, mothers. Brothers, sisters. Lives shattered in a single day. Some of those people talked to me today. One guy was a pilot for United Airlines in the new York area that clear morning. Another person stopped who was in New York city and saw it all with his own eyes. One person shook my hand and told me more than half of his Fire Dept. died that day and wanted to send my photo to that department to let them know they weren't forgotten. Never will I forget. I will always remember. It is more real to me today after doing my small tribute and getting to meet people directly affected by that day. God Bless the United States of America.
 
Ben's Facebook Post 9/11/13
I woke up this morning 12 years ago to watch the news and weather before school. As a 6th grader I did not fully understand the events that unfolded before my e...yes on that television that day. All I knew was bad people attacked us and many people died. I remember watching my mother crying. Now as a almost 23 year old fire fighter, soldier, and american. I realize the events of that day forever altered the course of my life and all Americans. We live in a "post 9/11 America" the moments after the attacks we as Americans were united. But since America has become more divided than ever. Maybe today we can put all other titles, opinions, race, religion, and other dividing factors and stand today united as Americans for the honor of those who lost their lives that day. And those who answered the call, Many their last call, To help those in need. And the soldiers who sacrificed all to bring to justice those responsible for the cowardly attack that rocked this nation. Today WE are Americans! We will never forget 9/11/01.
 
The link below is a video someone took of my brother and submitted to their local news.
 
I couldn't be more proud of him, my brother Derek, and my many cousins and uncles who serve as firefighters and policeman. My husband who was a fireman, my brother in law who was in law enforcement. My Father in law, my Grandfather in law, my brother Ben, my brother in law who have all served in the armed forces. As well as my own Grandpa Greer who was a WII purple heart recipient and volunteer fireman. I am so blessed to have and had such great examples in my life.
 
And to my friend Alan, whose poem I found 5 years ago and still brings a tear to my eyes.
 
 
Let the world always remember,
That fateful day in September,
And the ones who answered duties call,
Should be remembered by us all.

Who left the comfort of their home,
To face perils as yet unknown,
An embodiment of goodness on a day,
When men's hearts had gone astray.

Sons and daughters like me and you,
Who never questioned what they had to do,
Who by example, were a source of hope,
And strength to others who could not cope.

Heroes that would not turn their back,
With determination that would not crack,
Who bound together in their ranks,
And asking not a word of thanks.

Men who bravely gave their lives,
Whose orphaned kids and widowed wives,
Can proudly look back on their dad,
Who gave this country all they had.

Actions taken without regret,
Heroisms we shall never forget,
The ones who paid the ultimate price,
Let's never forget their sacrifice.

And never forget the ones no longer here,
Who fought for the freedoms we all hold dear,
And may their memory never wane,
Lest their sacrifices be in vain.

Alan W. Jankowski

Saturday, September 12, 2015

Helpless but Hopefull

We Shall Never Forget (9-11 Tribute)

 
Let the world always remember,
That fateful day in September,
And the ones who answered duties call,
Should be remembered by us all.

Who left the comfort of their home,
To face perils as yet unknown,
An embodiment of goodness on a day,
When men's hearts had gone astray.

Sons and daughters like me and you,
Who never questioned what they had to do,
Who by example, were a source of hope,
And strength to others who could not cope.

Heroes that would not turn their back,
With determination that would not crack,
Who bound together in their ranks,
And asking not a word of thanks.

Men who bravely gave their lives,
Whose orphaned kids and widowed wives,
Can proudly look back on their dad,
Who gave this country all they had.

Actions taken without regret,
Heroisms we shall never forget,
The ones who paid the ultimate price,
Let's never forget their sacrifice.

And never forget the ones no longer here,
Who fought for the freedoms we all hold dear,
And may their memory never wane,
Lest their sacrifices be in vain.

Alan W. Jankowski
 
Helpless....watching the World Trade Center fall, the Pentagon, and the heroic passengers on Flight 93. How could something like this happen? How could I help? I only graduated High School 3 months earlier. I had just finished my last summer as a "kid". Started a new job. Slowly working my way into the adult world. 9/11 made me realize that I was no longer a kid. Life was no fairytale. And yet I was so far away physically that sometimes it felt after watching live and then the news coverage over the next few days there was nothing I could do to help.
 
What could I an 18 year old hundreds of miles away do? We should or patriotic side, prayed, and kept on keeping on. I often would find myself thinking about the people who could have caused such devastation. How could someone do this to someone else? How could there be such evil in the world? But hope in humanity through the stories of people helping each other out of the buildings, people running in those same buildings. People picking each other up off the ground and running with them.

Lydia's thank you note from a few years ago

The stories of people like Frank De Martini and Pablo Ortiz who saved 77 people from the 88th floor. Flight attendant Betty Ong from Flight 11 who reported the hijacking of the first Airplane so when others went off radar traffic controllers where aware of the possibility of more hijackings. Stories of many others gave me something to cling to not all people are bad. And that is something to be grateful for.
 
Lydia's thank you note
And now 14 years later I realize that sometimes a few bad people will still try to hurt humanity. And if I let myself dwell on it I would feel hopeless. But hopeless and helpless are dark areas to be. Light cannot exist where darkness is. So I must choose to look to the light. To have HOPE. To watch for the heros, our uniformed ones as well as ordinary people who are given the opportunity to choose to step up and do. Hope that this world that I am raising my children in will one day be a place that they feel safe. Safe to live their lives and if they choose, a place that they will feel safe raising children of their own. That is my greatest hope. THEY are my greatest HOPE.
L to R: Lydia, Alex, Chase, AJ, Taylie, Tracie, Austin
 
 
 

Thursday, July 16, 2015

TBT: Great Grandma Jones

Back row: Donna Lee Greer Tolman and Fern Jones Greer
Front Row: Tracie Fern Tolman Turner and Veda Eggleston Jones
 

Thursday, March 12, 2015

Tuesday, December 31, 2013

Great Grandpa's Pumpkin Roller: 5 years later

 

 Since the day she was born Lydia and her Great Grandpa had a special relationship, she referred to him and my Grandma as "The Greats" and she was his pumpkin roller. Why pumpkin roller I don't really know.....other than can you think of anything cuter than a baby in a pumpkin patch?

The Greats were always so cute with her, she loved to play at their house and they loved having her there.
 

She would help them get ready for bed, tucking them in and getting cotton for Great Grandma's ears so she couldn't hear Great Grandpa snore. She loved to tap dance for them. Every Saturday evening we would turn on the Lawrence Welk Show and she would put her church shoes on and dance her little heart out and they would clap and clap. This also would happen when they would watch Singing in the Rain.
 
Right before Lydia's third birthday we found a bear in a trench coat that sang "Singing in the Rain" and my mom decided it would be the perfect gift for her. A few days before her birthday Grandpa got sick. We were told that he would have a few days left and I knew in my heart that he was going to pass away on Lydia's birthday. He wasn't responsive to hardly anyone and as the days past the less responsive he came. He gave Lydia the most wonderful gift he could give. The last words he spoke were to her, she had told him she loved him and he opened his eyes and said I love you to pumpkin roller.
Lydia and her Singing in the Rain bear

Lydia's 3rd Birthday
Shortly after her party Grandpa returned to his Heavenly Father and his mother and father who he missed so much. Every New Years Eve he would tell us "Today's my moms birthday, she would be__ today" (Happy 109th Birthday Great Grandma Greer!) It was a blessing that he was no longer suffering from Alzheimer and dementia but him passing on Lydia's birthday makes the day bitter sweet. She has a hard time with it, I try hard to remind her of their good times and the precious gift he gave her and continues to give. It has been 5 years and we miss him so much!
Lydia 8 years old
Shortly after her 8th birthday Lydia had her tonsils out (I will tell more of that story later) and she had complications like I did. She was kept over night and the next day in the hospital. I felt so alone up there, Alex was home with our other kids and my parents where working and Lydia slept a lot. I would watch her sleep. And wonder if there was anyone watching from the other side, and if so why couldn't I feel them with me?
Lydia and I resting at the Hospital
When we got home she came into my bedroom and said, mom do you remember Grandpa who passed away? I had a dream he came to me, he was wearing my favorite shirt and he told me to tell you not to worry that "Grandpa is here".
 
Knowing the special bond they had of course it would make sense that he would be watching over her and me from the other side especially during her tonsillectomy (I am sure there was others there too). And ever since then I have heard songs that he taught me,  Loch Lomond and Don't Fence Me In. And seen quite a few Tumbling Tumbleweeds.  It makes me miss him very much but I know that he is close and that "The Greats" will be there for Lydia's baptism this weekend as will all of her loved ones that have passed already. If they wouldn't miss it while they are alive, why would they miss it from the other side.
 
In his talk "The Ministry of Angels"  Elder Jeffrey R Holland states:
 
My beloved brothers and sisters, I testify of angels, both the heavenly and the mortal kind. In doing so I am testifying that God never leaves us alone, never leaves us unaided in the challenges that we face. “[N]or will he, so long as time shall last, or the earth shall stand, or there shall be one man [or woman or child] upon the face thereof to be saved.” 13 On occasions, global or personal, we may feel we are distanced from God, shut out from heaven, lost, alone in dark and dreary places. Often enough that distress can be of our own making, but even then the Father of us all is watching and assisting. And always there are those angels who come and go all around us, seen and unseen, known and unknown, mortal and immortal.
 
May we all believe more readily in, and have more gratitude for, the Lord’s promise as contained in one of President Monson’s favorite scriptures: “I will go before your face. I will be on your right hand and on your left, … my Spirit shall be in your [heart], and mine angels round about you, to bear you up.” 14 In the process of praying for those angels to attend us, may we all try to be a little more angelic ourselves—with a kind word, a strong arm, a declaration of faith and “the covenant wherewith [we] have covenanted.” 15 Perhaps then we can be emissaries sent from God when someone, perhaps a Primary child, is crying, “Darkness … afraid … river … alone.” To this end I pray in the sacred name of Jesus Christ, amen."
 
I know this to be true and I too say these things in the name of Jesus Christ, amen.


Sunday, December 29, 2013

For Time and All Eternity: LDS Temples


Zoe Elizabeth Tolman
 I will never forget the day this little girl walked into my life. With her beautiful blond hair and stunning eyes and her spunky personality. She was splashing away in the swimming pool with my brother and her mom. She was laughing and talking a mile a minute. It was love at first site. I had to stop myself several times from saying "Come see Aunt Tracie!" Because I wasn't  her Aunt, although it may have slipped out once or twice.
 
My brother had always told us that he would never marry and if he did it wouldn't be for a very, very, long time. So when he brought a date to our family reunion it was a BIG DEAL. And not just that he had brought a date but one with this beautiful little girl, I had to hide my shock. Because he told me that he was waiting to have kids till Lydia was old enough to baby sit for him. I don't know if he knew it then or not, but I did. This little girl was going to be my niece.  
 
And it wasn't long before this:
 
Once they were engaged Derek's name was placed on her Birth Certificate. He was on his Mission when she was born, but her biological father chose not to be involved. And that is okay, she is his. They have the same personality and if you didn't know it you couldn't tell because she looks just like him. He is her Dad, and she is my niece!
 
And on January 8, 2010 They were sealed for Time and All Eternity:
Jaydie, Derek, and Zoe

Lydia, Zoe, and Trinity

Jaydie, Derek, and Zoe
 Other than my own Temple Sealing, watching families and couples be joined together for Time and All Eternity is some of the most sacred and beautiful experiences I have ever had. People who through adoption, or are already married to finally receive those wonderful blessings that they have waited for, to have the people they love sealed to them forever there is nothing quite like it. It is a very special experience. And once you are Sealed any children born to you are yours forever too!
 
A few weeks ago I was teaching Zoe's class in church and during singing time we sang the song: Families can be Together Forever she turned to me with tears in her eyes and said: Aunt Tracie do you remember when I was sealed to my family forever? I do it was the most wonderful day! It was hard for me to hold my tears back and I wrapped my arms around her and told her I did, and it was a wonderful day!
 
A few days later her little brother Rockwell was born, he had trouble breathing and was in the NICU for a few days. Our family prayed and fasted for his health and for his parents. He is home now and doing well.
Zoe, Jaydie, Rockwell, Derek, Pyper
In our religion we believe that when we are married in the Temple that it is not just for this life, but that the family unit continues after death. For Time and All Eternity. Isn't that wonderful! I know it is true, and that we are not just sealed to our spouse and children but to our parents and grandparents as well if they were sealed in the Temple.
Adam and Jeryka
 What a wonderful day it was watching Adam and his wife Jeryka being Sealed, the joy on their faces will not be something I will ever forget.
Brad, Kristin, and Shaylee
 Brad, Kristin, and Shaylee on the day they were Sealed. I remember the spirit was so strong when they brought Shaylee in there wasn't a dry eye in the room. Such a wonderful day.
Alex and I, Alex being Sealed, Meleah's Sealing and Kolya's Endowment
The top picture is of Alex and I on our Wedding day when we were Sealed as Husband and Wife, for Time and All Eternity. The middle picture is of Alex and his family on the day he and his brother where Sealed to their new parents. Alex and Kolya are adopted and so even though his parents where married in the Temple they still needed to be Sealed to them.
 
The bottom picture is of my niece Meleah, she is so special! She made me an Aunt! She was 18 months old when Alex and I got married. She was adopted by Alex's mom and Dad last summer. She was so excited she could hardly hold still! It was a blessing that she had waited a long time for, all of us had and the excitement in the air was very contagious and lasted all day. Alex's brother Kolya also went through the Temple for the first time that day. It was a day full of spiritual blessings.
 
I am so blessed to have the gospel in my life, especially the blessings of the Temple. That my husband, children, parents, brothers, nieces, nephews, brother and sister in laws, Alex's parents, and all our grandparents will be a family forever. I couldn't ask for anything better.
My family
Austin, Alex, Tracie, AJ
Lydia, Taylie

Salt Lake Temple
For Time and All Eternity
Alex and Tracie
March 5, 2005
To learn more about LDS Temples please visit: www.lds.org



Wednesday, September 25, 2013

I just wanted to let you know....

 
I just want to let you know....
 
You are loved!
We have loved you since the day we heard
you were on your way!! We couldn't wait to kiss your face
and count you little toes. See first smiles, hear first words.
I may not be your Mommy, but I love you just the same.
The day you left I cried! If I had known the last time
was the last I would have held you tight.
And whispered that I love you,
and that you would be alright.
 
You are special!
Heavenly Father has great plans for you!
You have been blessed with two families.
Both love you and wants what is best for you.
One gave you life and gave you up because of love
The other took you in as their own
And I know that they love you too.
 
You are missed!
Please know that you are missed, and that I think about you often.
I know your mommy does too.  
I hear that you have had great things happen in your life
and while I am sad that I could not be there.
The happiness I feel for the blessings you received.
Words cannot describe.  
 
You were wanted!
Life happens as it often does.
I wanted to take you home
I wanted to love you like my own.
But the safest place for you
was far from here. 
But not far from our hearts 
 
And we will cling to the memories of the times we had.
 
And keep a prayer in my heart that one day
 I will get to hold you again
and whisper in your ear.
I love you!
 

Wednesday, August 28, 2013

Wordless Wednesday: Family Picture (minus the second row)

 Back: Donna (mom), Dean (dad), Dixie, Sander
2nd row back: Tyler, Adam, Grandma Greer, Taylor
Middle row: Jane, Brent, Grandpa Greer, Ben
2nd row: unknown
Front row: Crystal, Brad, Tracie, Derek, Jaron
Oct 2000, One of my favorite trips
Universal Studios Hollywood

Wednesday, August 21, 2013

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

Wordless Wednesday: Grandpa Tolman



Clarence Devan Tolman
Married
Mary Madeline Gingell
29, July 1949
in the Logan LDS Temple

He is survived by his 86 year old wife Mary.
8 Children
Devan, Dallas, Nancy, Ella, Del, Dean, Darwin, and Mary
He has 33grand kids and over 80 great grand and 1 great great granddaughter
He is joined in heaven with his granddaughter Alyson (8)
and greeted his great grandson Heath (2)
He also greeted he son in law Aaron at his passing.
Can't believe that it will be nine years since I saw your smile, felt your hugs and heard you sing my name. It is even harder to believe that you haven't met my husband or held my children in this life.
Thank you for your constant care, I love you.
Tracie Fern


Monday, August 13, 2012

My new nieces!!!!

Jonathan & Stephanie: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!: Relaxing after her first bath Alice Cherie Turner Born: August 12, 2012 Time: 4:02 am Place: McKay Dee Hospital, Ogden Utah Wei...

Here is a link to my newest niece baby Alice! She is so adorable!!!! I love being an Aunt!!!!!
My Brother and his wife also had a baby girl in July, her name is Madalyn but have asked that no pictures be shared. She is very beautiful though with thick dark hair....

I don't have any nephews on my side only nieces so we are still waiting (ahem) on them to get busy. You would think with 9 grand kids there would be more than just my two boys.

On Alex side though I have lots of both. Being an Aunt is one of the best things in the whole world. I just love them all so much!!!!

Thursday, July 19, 2012

Hearts of the Past: Gene Austin Greer: Military Service

Hearts of the Past: Gene Austin Greer: Military Service:        

In my Grandpa's handwriting about his military service. He rarely talked about it so this is precious to me, I have typed out a translation though at the bottom if you have trouble reading it.

Thursday, June 28, 2012

Looking Great at 88! Happy Birthday Grandpa!


Happy Birthday Grandpa! I am sorry we didn't make it to your party last week because of car trouble, but believe me we wanted to be there. We miss seeing you and the kids miss playing with you.

I remember the first time I met you, you and Jon where having a contest to see whose tongue was longer. I knew then that this would be a great family to be apart of. You and Grandma welcomed me into the family with open arms! And my kids still talk about wanting to go see you and play in your yard.

Thank You for being such a great example to my hubby growing up and to all us "in-laws" too who have made their way into this family. I am so glad that we will be together as a family unit with Christ comes again. Your testimony has helped mine grow emensly, as did Grandma's. We miss her so much. I miss being able to temple work for all those names she submitted.

Any ways, I hope you had a great 88th birthday, and that you will have many more to share!

Love,
Alex, Tracie, and the kids

Monday, June 11, 2012

Hearts of the Past: Gene Austin Greer: Daddy

Hearts of the Past: Gene Austin Greer: Daddy: I remember Daddy: I remember............... Daddy singing to babies as he must have sung to me "You Are My Sunshine" and "Little Buckaroo"...

Letters to my Grandpa from his Children.

Friday, May 18, 2012

Hearts of the Past: John Benjamin Jones

Hearts of the Past: John Benjamin Jones: John B Jones by Jack O Jones son John Benjamin Jones was born in Cherry Creek on Nov 16 1892 to John Morris Jones and Gwenford W...

Started a new family history blog of letters I have found in my Mom and Grandma's stuff.

Friday, August 5, 2011

The "Greats" Memories of My Grandma and Grandpa Greer

Every Saturday evening my parents, Lydia and I would watch "The Lawrence Welk Show" on PBS with my Grandma and Grandpa. Lydia was just a toddler and would dance and sing along and it brought my Grandparents such joy watching her. Lydia called them "The Greats" and would help put them to bed every night. My Grandpa passed on Lydia's 3rd birthday and my Grandma the day before the Twins and Taylie's birthdays this year. I miss them very much.

I had the privilege of living in their front yard growing up. My Grandpa sold the front of his property to my parents for a dollar so they could build a home. It was such a blessing be so close to them. The relationships that were developed between them and my Siblings and I are my most cherished memories. We saw them every day. And we knew that we were Grandma's Sunshine and she would give us anything she could. And Grandpa had better listen when it comes to the grandkids. I can still her saying "Oh, Gene let them be" When we went to Disneyland and the ocean for the first time they had decided they didn't want to come. Grandma quickly changed her mind, she didn't want to miss us seeing the ocean for the first time so she had Grandpa drive her all night to meet us there. He loved her so and would do anything for her. I don't think they missed a vacation after that.



Christmas morning we could not open presents until we called them and they would track across the snowy paths between our houses in the dark so they wouldn't miss it. Grandpa was the designated trash bag holder and Grandma made sure we opened them one at a time (sometimes to my Dad's dismay) so she wouldn't miss a thing. She would be up and ready by 4am just waiting for our call, not wanting to make us wait. She also would come over every morning to help my Mom with my twin brothers when they were born and also with my moms daycare. She would be there at 5 as soon as she saw my Dad had left for work.

Grandpa would drive us everywhere and tell us stories of growing up, the war if we were lucky, and of places he helped build. At the time I would think to myself I have heard these stories hundreds of times. Now I wish I could here them just once more. Towards the end of his life he suffered from Alzheimer's and didn't always know who we were. But he always knew Lydia, she was his Pumpkin Roller. She was the last person he spoke to. She had told him that she loved him and his response was "I love you too pumpkin roller." I remember his hands so well, he caught me climbing up the ladder to hand Alex Christmas lights when I was 8 months pregnant with the twins. I don't think I ever seen him so upset (at me anyway) and the lecture from him as he helped me down from the ladder was one I wont soon forget. He loved/loves me so much. He could fix anything. He would help with anything.


Grandma taught me that the Meadow lark song says "Tracie Fern's a pretty little girl" it wasn't till I was a teenager that I learned she sung this to all of my cousins. It still made me feel special though. She would sing songs of "Mares eat Oats", "Donut Shop", but most of all "You are My Sunshine.


I was named after her, Fern. It is so beautiful. I have to admit though it was so much fun when I was younger trying to get classmates to guess my middle name and telling them it was a 4 letter F word. We had a special bond, she was their for all most all of my "Firsts" and I had the privilege of being their for all of her "lasts". The last time she went to the Temple was when I took out my endowments, My children were some of the last babies she got to hold. Children always brightened her day.


 I was there for her last Christmas, I call it our Christmas Miracle. She too had Alzheimer's and dementia and the last few years she wouldn't know who were were. Lydia would cry almost every time we left because she didn't know her. It broke my heart. But on Christmas she was herself, she knew us, played with the children, hugged and kissed them. It was such a blessing as that was the last time they saw her. I started visiting her every Thursday before I would head into work, she never spoke or knew who I was. She would look at you with a blank stare. I was able to occasionally get her to sing with me some of the songs she would sing to me growing up. I could see the little flicker of who she once was. I was the last person she spoke to. As I was leaving I repeatedly told her "I love you Grandma, I have to go now" trying to initiate some response. After several tries I turned to leave and she looked at me, really looked at me, she knew me and said "I love you too, sweetheart" and then I could see the fog settle in again. She passed away a week later.


Grandma and some of my cousins. She is holding me.

 I stayed with my mom, dad, and two of my aunts at the nursing home while we waited for her to go home. My wonderful husband kept the house and the kids together.  It was a long 3 days, the hardest in my life. Trying to contact cousins, and Aunts so my mom wouldn't have to. Staying up late till the time came. I had left the nursing home to clean up my parents home so they wouldn't have to worry about it when they got back. While there I stopped in the room she used to stay in and was looking at some of her trinkets. I found a Hummingbird music box that played her favorite song "In the Garden" I felt very impressed that I should bring it back with me. I did and when I went to show my parents and aunts I found them working on a hummingbird puzzle. Ironic I thought.


She passed just minutes after we finished it, it was one of the most sacred experiences I have ever had the privilege of being apart of. The next few days I went with my mom to help with the arrangements (I am an only daughter with 4 brothers and felt she needed me there and that I needed to be there so she let me come). Everywhere I looked in the Funeral home were little figurines or pictures of Hummingbirds. Hummingbirds. When I got home I decided to Google the meaning of them. Hummingbirds represent the transition from life to death, joy, hope, and infinity. Wow. I still think of her every time I see a Hummingbird, which has been quite a lot. I also was able to help dress her in the temple clothes her mother made for her. Inside her temple bag was the Grandmother ID card they gave her when she came to the temple with me. I put it in my pocket and took it home. It now rests in my temple bag. She looked so beautiful, she looked like My Grandma. I know that she lives, I feel her with me when I miss her the most. I sure do miss her. I am so grateful to a loving Heavenly Father and my Brother Jesus Christ for making it possible for us to be and Eternal family. It gets me through each day.